Editing The Sevant Murders (section)

===On the Planet, Unalloyed Loss===



(Dreamland - Everywhere - Sevant - time is of no consequence)

Even in his dreams, the pain was enough to make his chest hurt. 

Was he aware of his unconscious state? That matter could be up for debate, but it didn't matter to him in the slightest at that particular moment in time. The beach in front of him was awash around his legs, capped with white-tops out beyond the break point. In a show of weather that he had never before seen in what had been their home for so many years, a storm raged, battering the island with fury unmatched in Sevant's previous experience. 

It didn't matter. 

On the outside, Sevant was impassive, his face composed and his figure unconsciously at a loose parade rest. He had no memory of walking into the surf, he didn't even stop to wonder why he had come back to this place. All that mattered now was that on the inside, not even the storm could match the absolute tempest that raged. A mass of emotions, so overwhelmingly powerful that he couldn't even begin to show them physically, surged through his blood and mind. Crushing grief at the loss of his family, pure hatred at whomever had caused this. 

Loss, unalloyed and unbuffered loss, was prominent however. 

He looked out into the tempest, not seeing and not caring, daring the elements themselves to take him, for he had no other reason to stay behind. Quite illogically, quite without hope, he mind-sent into the wind for his family. He strained so hard, so he thought, that a nosebleed started not much later. 

Then, ever so slowly, his awareness of the wind and the weather faded.
He took a deep breath, and let himself fall...



(Planet surface, Base Camp, Sevant, 1945)

His eyes opened slowly. He felt completely numb, all over, but he could feel a slight trickle on his upper lip that said not everything he had dreamed had been an absolute fabrication, he had indeed sent so hard that he had pushed himself beyond physical limits. Pain would come later, real physical pain that was the bodies way of saying 'no more'.

All the other pain had been with him constantly, it was no different now that he was awake. 

His eyes closed again, grief vied with rage for a few moments, but the grief won out. 

~Vicki...~